i will never ever ever ever ever ever ever PON SCHOOL/TRAINING.

this is the time i would like to get things straight.

i’m not very prone to getting sick, but once i get sick, i will get veryvery sick and it will take me at least a week to recover.

even when i go see the doc, the nurse heard me tell my mom that i have training tmr. the nurse was like, “whoah, flu still wan to train, sure cannot take it one”.

i was not the one who made all the decisions on whether i can go training or not. it’s my mom! my mom signed the letter why not you go find her instead!

and i really fking hate people who make stupid assumptions on why i didnt go school like, i pon or what. it’s fking irritating you know, people sick down there then create more trouble. my captain even called as said whether i pon school la! and i expect an apology and yet you said, oh i nid to do chem homework if not mrs tan scold me. LIKE WTF?

and i THOUGHT you would be smart enough to know that when a person comes school, the first thing you would think of is, she not feeling well isit? then you said the first thing that came to your mind is, “SHE PON”. LIKE WTF! you’re just FKING INSENSITIVE.

when i get my gun, i shall just shoot and kill your brain cos it doesn’t seem like it’s working.

fuck you bitch.

i really wanna go diving~~

 

omg! it’s been like 3 months since i last touched the ocean and dive down already!!!

you guys probably wont know the feeling to water all around you. it’s not like swimming. you get to stay underwater and explore for 45mins!! like WTF!!! and then you see fishes that are so small in the aquarium yet soooooo big in the ocean!!! haha.. i hope o lvlv will pas fastfast, and i will get good grades so i can go layang layang and dive @ the sharks cave!!! haha…

and i know how to make ring bubbles alrd!!! i was trying while playing with my fins and mask @ the swimming pool last year. if you guys dno whut’s a ring bubble, it’s something like this…

cool huh?? xD

being yourself

” Be true to yourself and be less concerned with what others think about you. Don’t accept their definition of you, but grow into a self-definition of your own.”

ACCENTRATE THE POSITIVE!!

INEFFICIENT                       UNIMAGINATIVE

INEFFECTIVE         INABILITY

            IMPOSSIBLE                                   INSIGNIFICANT

INVISIBLE      IMPRECISE                   UNINSPIRED

                     UNHAPPY                        IMPERFECTION

                                UNMOTIVATED

diamonds

beautiful diamonds, sparkling.

it’s is an allotrope of carbon, yet it able to become this hard and firm.

it’s just our life. it may be simple, but with the ability to withstand the fking high pressure and long periods of time, you too could become a diamond, sparkling and bright.

lean on me

lean on me,  when you’re not strong, i’ll be your friend, i’ll help you carry on.

the title of a “friend”, is not something that is  just for show. a friend is a very heavy responsibility, a shoulder to cry on, a face to laugh at. in other words, you are the main person that will make your friend happy, and without a moment of sorrow in her eyes.

but, even if your friend is very willing to let you lean on her, it is up to you to trust or not.

you may say, aww i appreciate that. but you know that sometimes your friend can feel that you are hiding something from her although you said, i promise not to keep anything to myself and will tell you one.

so, it’s a two way trust. it’s the same as any other relationship. unless you trust the person, there’s not way the person could trust whut you said. :)

bud anyway, school was rubbish today, dint even study @ all. and i used 3 pages (aka one and a half piece of paper) for ss test. but my handwriting was humongous! haha.. but i’l still satisfied on whut i manage to write today, quite unbelievable.

it must be called, “study hard, and it will be hard to regret”

ahaha, call me wise dudes!

2/10 of the war won!

HAH! yay, 2 battles in a day. woooow now at least i have a proper table to type.

the under the table.

still fighting…

HAH!!!

A PROPER TABLE + a roll of kitchen towel!! I WON THIS BATTLE!

under the table!

whoah, tired liao. gonna study ss! taaataa~~

1/10 of the battle is won!

haha, i just started cleaning my room, cos i had to make space for my new cupboard and i’m going to paint my rooom soon! although i like pink(hurhur, unbelievable right), i’m going for grey, an urban look with a princessie feel. d: enjoy the pictures! althought it’s like, only 4.. -_- ok, la, i’ll add the 2 ikes pics with my mom.

momo and bro @ ikea, finding the stupid rack.

mommy posing for the cam! my bro went to take the trolley.

a great day ends with a couple of zilian shots. xD

and then, the war begins.

war no. 1 (1/10)

last pic was under my bed. ey! i got clean up ok! only under my desk .but TRUST ME! it was worst b4!! haha… now i love my under the table.. it’s sooooo clean!! hhaha…

heh, it’s going to be a really long war.

THE BATTLE BETWEEN YEEYIN’S ROOM AND YEEYIN!

COME BACK FOR MORE.

finding the end of the rainbow.

post dedicated to alycia yang wei ting, a new friend that fate decided to bring upon me.

set out on a quest to find the end of the rainbow you see on the sky. but reality decides to be harsh on you. there was never an end. no more pot of gold, no more steps up to the rainbow heaven you wished and pray all night. how will you decide to feel.

i know you. you will not be able to take the truth, not be able to stand reality. you wish to fight back, but that’s how it seems. but if you wish to fight back, i’ll stand along with you.

the rainbow has seven colours. maybe reality isnt being bad. it’s just teaching us a life lesson, constantly reminding us by sending rainbows on our rainy days.

as you all know, rainy days, unpleasant. dark stupid clouds, hanging out your door, and you hesitate whether to go out. you sulk, curse whatever. but after all the rain, the rainbow stood outside your house. i always though the rainbow as a reminder for me, no matter where i am.

the rainbow has 7 colours: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. red, it represents anger, times when we are angry with life, angry with the reality. oranges, representing the warmth we feel in out lives. green, jealous of what people have. blue, the feeling of sadness and guilt. indigo, this i dont know, let’s say it’s ramdomness. violet, the feeling of gayness. HAHA, well call it happy. imagine the rainbow with a colour or two missing, or just made up of one colour. will be it beautiful? will it be nice? will it feel proper to you.

that’s how life decided to work. one element missing in your life could make a difference. so whut if you are happy, yet unable to feel the blues, experience the troubles so when you fall, you pick yourselves up and start again. then whut if you’re only blue, and unable to sense the joy other people have.

dear friend, i could only say this much. 14 days may not be alot, we’ve not met. but you said one thing that made me feel really good:

we’re like xin ling xiang tong.
(10:03 PM) MissAlycia:	dont knw lehs. i jus got this feeling

thanks for trusting me.

feel helpless, feel bad. when the whole world rejects you, i’ll be there. if your’e running alone, i’ll join in the run, i will hold your hand and cross the finishing line with you. but if one day, i were to stop, i wish you will continue running. don stop. don give up. go ahead, i will catch up. all i want you to do is to be well and finish the race, well and proper.

so that’s all i wanna say my friend.

and we shall meet up soon dear.

muahhs.

remember the rainbow. you will be fine. :)

filming behing my house

 

most memorable,

and why i will hate jeanette au and konglong forever.

snobbish people.

don vote them in the next hong xing da jiang.

their personality sucks. snobbish!!! and it’s my house ok! respect the owner!

school = unleasing your creativity.

one words speaks it all. inspired by jh lesson. -_-

and you get to send yourself to outer space.. *peeeeeeewwwww*

and lose an arm.

voala! wonderful table. :D

but the best of all…

you make spastic friends :)

AHHH!!!! 229HITS?!

wow, i nv scored that high during my exams.

i wonder why.

??

why are there people visiting my blog?

wow.

sighs

32/36 people fail.

are you sure you still wan this teacher.

*comments allowed for those who fail*

and there’s nothing to be ashamed about. i got 15.5. fuuck.

pretty if not equals to good personality

oh, jeanette au(well, i think she is that.. that ou xuan arh) and another guy was filming behind my house the other day. dint take pic with them cos they are freakin’ dao. yup. so don be a fan of anyone until you know how they are really like. pretty does not equal to very nice personality.ciao.

gossips.

just one point i wanna make.

you may be gossiping about someone.

but at the same time, the person is gossiping about you too.

people whose names start with V are darn irritating and cant live a day without

their daily dose of gossips and talking.

why things are this way and not the other.

some people get to go overseas and study.

some get to at least go SAS.

some parents are richer.

some parents are nicer.

some get to have high iq.

some get to live in a big house.

some get to have aircon 24hours a day.

some get to do things i cant get to do.

some get angmoh boyfriends.

some get angmoh friends.

some get to travel around the world.

why cant i have all these experiences. except to live an ordinary life everyone else has.

i wan to be extraordinary.

do something different, make myself look good.

i wan to be different, and laugh while all of you are the same.

老婆 just for muh buddies :))

從昨天　到今天　還有明天
感謝老天讓你們陪在我身邊

愛的心　痛的心　等待的心
因為有妳們的擁抱我很放心

當初見面的不安　彼此探索
也許有點茫然迷惑　朝夕相處才發現
這世界中　沒有人　比你們更懂我

朋友　姐妹　都已不夠來形容　我們的默契驕傲　扶持與包容
老婆　老婆　我們一起打勾勾　請記得約定的旅程到永久
從昨天　到今天　還有明天
感謝老天讓你們陪在我身邊

愛的心　痛的心　等待的心
因為有妳們的擁抱我很放心

當初見面的不安　彼此探索
也許有點茫然迷惑　朝夕相處才發現
這世界中　沒有人　比你們更懂我

朋友　姐妹　都已不夠來形容　我們的默契驕傲　扶持與包容
老婆　老婆　我們一起打勾勾　請記得約定的旅程到永久

朝夕相處才發現
這世界中　沒有人　比你們更懂我

朋友　姐妹　都已不夠來形容　我們的默契驕傲　扶持與包容
老婆　老婆　我們一起打勾勾　請記得約定的旅程到永久

請記得約定的旅程到永久

gearing up for a long week nxt week…

faints. there are five big tests nxt week. all long subjects, heavy chapters, and i havent been doing much, ok, i dint do any revision @ all during the holidays. so it means that i have to start from scratch. faints more.

haha.. oh well, i shant blog any more, because there are not much happenings today, just that as usual, i got irritate with someone who sucks her noodles so unglamly. i dont mind if unglam acts are acted, but she’s like that. totally like a spoilt brat la.. faints.

ok, i watch tv liao, learn how to cook and be a good wife nxt time!~

should it be now? or when.

things have been happening for the past few years. not been pleasant, but i still made it through.

but i’m tired of being alone through all these, with people coming and going saying they will help me and stuff. but in the end, i’m still left quite alone in this strange world.

i’ve got a few good friends though, but there are points where i feel so deserted by them, like, no one’s caring bout whether i’m having problems or m alive or what. it’s just a weird feeling i’m having every now and then.

there’s not one always there for me, 24hrs with a reply. no one to rant to, no one to complain to. no one whom i could just go out with and hug and cry.

life is too tiring for me for the past few years and counting. i wish i could just breakdown, not doing anything. just there, down, blank. slitting wrists was one of the thought i had last time. no, i’m not being AA, but it’s kindof real. but heh, i dint do it anyway so, yea.

it’s very tiring, it’s very confusing, it’s too, lonely to be living in this world whr you dont know anyone who will always be there.

mom will shush you when she’s busy, bro will scold you when he’s mad, dad will do the same + violence around. friends would ignore my messages, friends will just type what’s wrong and what happened and small little lines that doesnt help. friends will desert you, friends will just leave you alone to die.

i just wan someone who will be there for me.

just for me, and no one else.