JACK J. WISEMAN – 1 MARCH, 16
PUAH JING WEN – 6 MARCH, 15
HUI SHAN – 7 MARCH, 16
CHEONG YEE YIN (ME) – 12 MARCH, 16
MICHELLE ANNE – 12 MARCH, 16
MELBERLY HO – 16 MARCH, 14
GOH SI YUAN – 18 MARCH, 16
well, happy birthday in advance!!!
one year older, a little bit wiser.
enjoy your birthday march babies!!
oh well, term 1. i think i’ve already failed 3-4 papers, chinese, english, math, chem , bio. ok, it’s not only 3-4. it’s alot more.
i dont know why, everyone seems to be improving and i’m the only one to be left behind. why? i really dont know. isit because of the laptop that is sitting on my table? or the bed that is always tempting you to sleep on it. or maybe, it’s just me, being either too relax or it’s the most i could go.
sometimes i think, wouldnt it be better for me to stay in sec 3? my juniors are there, fun bunch of people. and i get an extra year to ace my o lvls. but heh, it’s going to be one extra year. but i dont really know saving a year would do any good to me. hmm..
anyway, miss nair sprained her ankle i think. if you see her around just ask if she’s aight ya? she’s a great teacher. haha.. although i’m still alil intimidated by her. haha, she has those scary eyes you know? lol. but she’s way better then the previous one.
seriously, i dont know why, after we changed our chem teacher(much to my delight), i’m still failing leh! i think it’s cos i’m too busy to copy the words than to digest them la. zzz, should changed the habit, should READ and COPY at the same time and not just photocopy off the screen and chuck it to some corner in my bed room.
and my blogdership is like falling rapidly!!! i should find something interesting to blog soon!!!! cos i don wan it to DIE!!!! omg!!!! i cant let the 400+ views go to drain like that!!!! i must build it to a thousand, then to a few thousands, and ten thousand!!! hahaha.. ok, lame joke. lol. but i’m sad no one is reading it already. must be me turning normal like anyone else and not special anymore. hurhur…
i’m going to study history liao la. i wanna pass ok!!! i don wan to fail yet another stupid paper. lol, feel the stress yeeyin!!!!! o lvl papers start in OCTOBER!! less than a year for you to prepare you know!!!
CHEONG YEE YIN!!! CHIONG AH!!!!!!
when i sit there and smile at the jokes made about me, it doesnt mean that i love it.
“i love suaning yeeying cos it’s very fun to see her reaction”.
everything has a limit. and to say the truth. i’m not happy with the “suanings” like:
1.me having no boobies.
2.i am ugly.
3.i’m stupid.
4.i have no good bod.
5.my blog is tad boring and you read it cos you wanna find points to suan me and gossip with other people.
yeahyeah, whatever, like you are perfect anyway. i bet those who hate me or read this blog to find amusement cos you think i’m a-person-that-thinks-we-are-gossiping-with-her-and-not-her. seriously, i dont care about what you think of me, but you don have to say it loud.
i regret telling you about my family, about my father whacking my bro with a golf club b4(well, i dno if it’s an accident) and you decide to blurt out to the rest.
where is the sense of responsibility. i remember telling to you that, you are not to spread it, cos when i tell someone about my family, i dont expect people to spread it either to laugh at me or to sympathise me.
i regret trusting you.
i regret the fact that i’m trying to treat you as a friend.
i’m sick and tired of you suaning me cos it has gone way past the limit, and the suanings you are to give me in future will be insults and no longer jokes.
i doubt you will feel remorseful about this, or maybe you were putting on a mask as you try to treat me nice AT TIMEs. you would probably try and succeed wriggling your way through i dno through what methods.
think before you talk.
although i seem that i speak with no brains, i do consider when i speak, phrasing insults into jokes, which do not really hurt that bad by adding a joking at the back, then apologising to let the person know i’m just kiddin’. but yet, you just bl urt it out to the whole world.
and about the ponning school thing? i’m still upset about it.
i will not have anything to do with you anymore, since knowing you does not bring me any good either, since you want to be heard, and not to hear, g, rejoicing when you got near full marks while i failed. well. maybe i shouldnt expect too much since you’re not a friend.
but thanks for letting me know you.
cos now, i know how to analyse a person and choose my friends wisely from now on.
a friend that do not insult
a friend that hears, and not try to be heard by talking so loudly
a friend that has the responsibility to keep secrets, not to spread them
a friend that supports and not go with the crowd and suan me.
oh ya, you’re not my friend in the first place.
i regret knowing you.
i really do.
塞翁失马，焉知非福。
有时，失去一样东西，或无法得到一样东西，可能是因为，在后头，有一样更好，
更美丽的东西在等着你去发现它。
生命其实是公平的。得到一样， 就会失去一样。
所以，不要伤心，照样过着，每一天。不要为这件事而愁眉苦脸。因为要有充实的
力量才能寻找自己该拥有的，而不要一点小挫折而放弃一切。
祝，
早日找到你们该有的幸福，快乐。
i wan a life of only me and my angmoh bf,
running along the beach, splashing water and chasing each other while singing a stupid song like a typical bollywood movie, just that’ i’m a yellow, and he will be a white. :D
we’ll have this beautiful house next to the beach, with white fence around it. puppies will be running around the grassy patch, and we’ll spend time bathing them but end up playing with the water instead.
we’ll snuggly up in bed, not only the two of us, but invite the puppies to sleep with us.
then, i’ll be working @ the australian zoo taking care of the dolphins and sea lions, and also the big cats. i’ll be part of conservation projects and hopefully, stop the production of sharksfin and the killings of the whales, turtles and other marine mammals, as well as poaching for animals fur or skin.
we’ll be star gazing everynow and then, and fly kites, go for walks down the beach, and we’ll dive whenever we feel like it. we’ll bring the puppies to swim, while we sit on the sand, me in bikini, and him in speedos(whoah, hot!!), gettin’ a tan.
but it’s a perfect life, and nothing is perfect in life.
but i still wan my angmoh bf, and some of the listed things to happen.
oh, for the time being, i jsut wanna do well and get into james cook university.
lol. sudden randomness.
i must be suffering from depression. hurhur.
*NOT*
i was fucking pissed of this morning man. zz:
1. i woke up late. pissed at myself.
2.my bro woke up late too. pissed at bro.
3.seth tan say “fasterfasterfaster” when i already reached my class row. like for what? pissed at him.
4. two councillors and st ask me to button up and tie my belt. i got only two hands! how can i do both at a time???? pissed at them.
5. A councillor whoses socks are also low, ask me to pull up my socks. i should be booking her man. pissed at her.
6.Someone interrupted me for interrupting someone and scolded me for it.ironic isnt it? pissed at her.
7.i’m hungry. pissed at the timing.
i nid to go drink water now. pissed to much today.
-_-lll
life is never fair.
roses are beautiful, yet they have thorns. the sky is beautiful, yet the sun is too glaring and you cant see it for long. life is fun, yet you cant stay forever.
i’ve learnt a new lesson today.
want less, so you will be less tempted for things that will never come, and you will be less disappointed when it doenst happen.
be contented with what you have. don change your bf for a new crush, don throw the rose away because the thorns pricked your finger, don expect things to last forever, therefore you learn to cherish.
life is never fair. so stop grumbling when it just dont go your way.
but instead, appreciate that is is not fair, if not, there wont be a purpose to be here. because the main reason we are on earth is to learn.
be happy guys.
cos i’m feelin’ kindof low today.
but fret not, i bet i’ll be happy tomorrow.
cos i know it. :)
but i still want an angmoh bf.
and go aussie and get my zoology cert.
this is what people(ok, just one) type in search engine to find my blog:
what the fuck.
horny ass. -_-
yeeyin: i see red. is that board red?
eileen: ya.
yeeyin: ok, then it’s not me.
eileen: ha, i think menses has gotten into your head.
yeeyin: -_-;
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yeeyin: (lying on the desk) i think i saw an eagle fly past.
eileen: i saw something just now. it’ brown and black
yeeyin: it’s a pigeon. -_-
eileen: no. it’s not!
yeeyin: yes it is, i saw it just now.
eileen: no, it has a long brown tail.
yeeyin: -_-;
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best quote:
yeeyin: *whacks eileen*
eileen: STOP BOTHERING ME, GO DO YOUR WORK!
yeeyin: *whacks her* does your mother say that?
eileen: no, she..
yeeyin: cuts in, asks you whether you have done your work, then you say ya, then she leaves you alone. see i’m so clever right.
eileen: no, that’s what i told you yesterday!!!
yeeyin: *smile* * do work* * sleep*
lol. to say the truth, i’m used to this kind of attention. in fact, i think it’s damn fun. you get to scold people and people gossip about you, and blahblah. but i dont care. you can spread to the school, but, i spread YOU to the whole world. how’s that.
anyway, i had 5 cockrooaches in my house yesterday, and yea, one decided to land on my shoulder, two in my room, one missing, one in the living room and one in the toilet. and all these happened because the china mamas upstairs started to clean up in the middle of the night, while i was watching my favourite tv show, the nine oclock one. fuck you man china mamas. seriously, i dont know why, china is soooo big, yet they wan to come to such a small country and disrupt our happy, peaceful life.
like table tennis, so many china students around, and every one is like, letting them go thier way and multiply. last time, the table tennis arena in singapore is all singaporeans students. now, in every team, at least 2or 3 are china students. anw, don worry cos stnicks has a tradition that states, (of course is formed by us) we wont have a china student in our team, and we will get into the top four totally using our strength and determination. we do not need foreign talents. we all go local. we do not need to IMPORT these people, let them have a good life, while we all suffer on the bench without much recognition.
i seriously do think, singapore should really have just singaporean people to take part in competitions. dno take pr, just singaporean CITIZENS.what’s the use of sending a team made up of people born in china? to them, it will be like playing among chinese only because all over the world, there are china sportsmen scattered around trying to make thier name.
so, i really do think that, singapore should send SINGAPORE CITIZENS instead of some person who is born and brought up in another country.
to say the truth, they are snatching out place away. our jobs, out triple science classes, our school. and the worst part is, they have darn protection from all the people, and they lead a wonderful, straight path to their future, while we are stuck in the muddy path, trying to keep up, lest singapore gets taken over by them.
so sgians!!! WORK HARD!! WE CAN DO IT AND SHOW THAT WE ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST!!! AND WE DEPEND ON OURSELVES!! BECAUSE WE ARE AN INDEPENDENT COUNTRY!!! WOOO!!!
wow, why am i so patriotic out of a sudden. -____-
for those who are watching the nine o’clock show, i bet you know that, er gong zhu go put cockroach in the food that taole cook right. and guess what, of all times, a cockroach decided to do the same and give me it’s second shock to my life.
when i was watching tv, i felt a light thump on my back. then i though, aiya, must be wind blow then the shirt hit back on my shoulder. then i turned my head, A FUCKING COCKROACH WAS ON MY SHOULDER LA!!!! the next moment i bet it’s like what you all guys wanna see. I SCREAMED MAN!!! then i danced the lakukaracha with a couple of tap dancing cos the cockroach was on the floor and changing direction as if to block me!!!! omg!!!! it’s like the second time alrd la!
the first time happened when i was in bet, and it decided to drop by and say hi while climbing on my wall. like WTF?! i spent the rest of the night finding it with my mom armed with baygone. then i just gave up and slept in my parent’s room. hurhur.
the bad part about staying in geylang is. no matter how clean your house is, you really cannot get rid of these pests. especially rats and cockroach. and my house sooooo big (ok, not big, exaggeration), it decides to take a turn from my hallway and go into my room. -_- i just kept spraying deodourant all over, trying to get it out with the sweet smell (while it’s bad to it). well, it still didnt wanna come out. omg. i seriously hate rats.
BUT THE MAIN THING ABOUT THE POST IS. wtf! WHY SO QIAO ONE!!! SEE COCKROACH ON TV, THEN NEXT MIN IT JUMPED ON ME!!! so many places to land, my suaysuay land on my shoulder. fuck you la cockroach. zzz…
and fuck, my bro is being coward and not going to kill it for me. I DONT CARE. cos i finished my rice alrd. and his is left outside. HAHA. TOO BAD!!!
lol, i had the most terrible dream last night. i dreamt that my laptop got SCRATCHED!!! and it’s not like, on cut or smth leh! it’s scratch until the silver paint came off and the whitish part came out!!!! it’s like scratching your phone and it turns really ugly. BUT THE BAD PART IS, MY LAPTOP GOT SCRATCHED LEH! OMG! haha.. ok, it’s just a dream. my lappie like my angmoh husband liddat ok! HHA.. lol, ok, this is gettin’ nowhere.
uhuh, i’m gonna have monday blues… i’m sooo tired lo, and it’s only the beginning of sec four!!! i have so much more to endure lorh seriously. wtf. i hate chem now more than ever. i just got this feeling that sn teachers are like, soooo unreasonable, maybe just to our class. wtf, last class (that’s how i think la) then keep saying us, then treat like we’re a lousy piece of shit ( being a shit is worse enough, must be a lousy piece somemore -_-). why cant they like treat us like young adults. if we’re sincere enough to tell you we did not do, did not bring, or even find a convincing lie to tell, why not let us off, and let us feel regretful, and not feel humiliated by making us stand in class, shout across the room, accusing that we did not do out homework. it’s plain unfair man.
one day, if i become one of the gahmen people ar, i make sure all teachers go through the super nanny course man! teach them how to handle things the professional way, and not the “professional” way. i can imagine how many kids quit school cos they feel humiliated ok. i’m not exaggerating. some students really don go school cos they’re afraid of meeting the teacher again. it’s so fucking idiotic la please. students should really learn how to stand up for yourself and use the most useful weapon you have (go guess it yourself).
grr. so angry la. hate school hate school hate school!!!
oh well, a few more tests to go, and it’s holiholidays!!! so api api api (coined by felicia chin, it means happy happy happy). ha. counting down to my bdae!!! 24 days more!!! have you got my presents ready? (keke)
you grab my tail,
eyes full of tears.
You give it a blink,
down it comes with fear.
You wiped it off,
carelessly with the back of your hands.
But i dont care,
how much you’re in despair.
I had enough,
i need to go.
It’s unfair to me,
you’ve got to keep clear.
I wanna run through that horizon,
cos i wanna be far,
away from you ever.
No more clinging on to my tail,
i’m going to shake you off,
even if it kills you.
Don force me to bring my claws out,
cos i’m gonna hurt you deeper,
than the bruise i’m gonna give,
just swinging you off.
It’s annoying,
i’m calling me mom.
Even if she comes with a rod,
i’ll be grateful (and i’m speaking real).
Cos she wants me to go far,
venture out there.
But yet you just,
and held on to me for protection.
But i aint made,
to be your slave.
I’d rather not meet you
and carry on with my life here.
But since you came,unwilling to go,
then i’ll have to leave
and get away from you.
Forget the promises that i’ve made before
cos it was said, before i knew what i was made for.
Not for you, i’m certain of that.
But for my mom and my bro, and for that father i hated most.
I dont care how much you wan this friendship back.
Cos in my dictionary now, i added a new word.
The meaning of friendship comes like this:
“friendship is an irritating thing. So just fuck off and eat a piece of shit, cos you just got yourself into a messy pit.”
i looked into the mirror, i gave myself a nod.
If you dont stop, then i’ll stop.
Cos in the end, it aint gonna go anywhere.
Now i’m off to be, no, not to dream of you.
But the rewards i’m getting for forgetting you.
i told her to let go. forget it, i’m just gonna wash my hands out of this matter. i live for tomorrow, not for myself. from this experience onwards, i will not, get myself into this kindof mess being miss helpful and listen to other people’s problems. because i live for tomorrow, i live for my own. i aint gonna look left and right, just the front. i keep my ears closed, and my eyes focus. cos THESE, are distractions and irritations that are annoying me and delaying me from gettin to my goal.
i will not be entangled into a spiderweb, and struggle myself to death. for i, have enough to live for, and need no more.
it’s now different story. cos now, you cling onto nothing but thin air. cos i wont even let you touch my shadow. i dont care how much you treasure relationships. but i’ll make myself clear once and for all. i dont give it a damn. i dont really care if i’m miss good friend or whatever before. i really dont give it a damn.
go on, if you wanna be unfair to yourself and get depressed over this minor matter. i dont care now.
all i could say is adios, because, i really cant stand someone holding on to me. if you dont go, i’ll go, and trust me, i will not turn back.
you’ve caused me to worry, you’ve caused me to feel bad. but now, i wont care. i have o lvls to think of, a levels to think of, my family, my studies, my future, my university.
i cannot stop because SOMEONE refuse to let this go. listen to your mom. it’s time to let go. even not for yourself, think about me. i can say you’re ruining me cos i’m spending so much to telling you to let go. see why i refuse to continue the relationship. you’re like this, you cannot change, i’m not suited to your personality. i prefer independent people who do not think of me. cos i jsut wanna be free. let go. let go.
*told you to stop bloggin’ about this, yet you do not understand. since you cant understand, i’ll take things the harsh way, and you cant blame me. because you made me do it. if there are most posts about me, this internet friend. you’ll never ever find a trace of me in the end.*
fuck you assholes
if you wanna comment, write your fucking name down, or at least an email.
faggots.
lala, i got punished today by tsk, cos i did not bring my worksheet(s), had to stand for a period but i had to go off after 15mins for competition. haha, nato also kena fazhan. lawls. but she was like, “c, take out a piece of namelist, put a cross beside thier names then on top, put NEVER DO”. i was like, WHAT?! i did and you said i didnt do?!(ok, i dint shout those out of course!) and i was like fucking pissed that she actually accused me of not doing. it’s just so fucking unfair right? how could she do this man! last year, the lit teacher said my classmate was cheating, thus a 0 for her and she had to fucking retain. you teachers out there. you can accuse all you want, but have you thought that, we are the ones that suffer for nothing cos you and your unfair accusation of us. it’s just not fair! then i could just say, oh, you had a affair with one of the teachers cos i saw you two together for lunch. cannot right? and i just got a feeling tsk wasnt very shuang with me lor. she told another class that she had to teach us cos we wanted a change. and she told my classmate that I WAS THE ONE WHO COMPLAINED ABOUT JHOO, which is COMPLETELY UNTRUE. why would i wanna complain about him without MEETING HIM and GET FACTS RIGHT. if you’re just gonna say, “hur, but you everyday in class say what, wanna kick jhoo out, whether we still want jhoo, of course we knoe it’s you la!”. ok, then my rebuttal. you say, OH I’M GONNA DIE, I’M GOING TO FAIL THIS TEST, I WANNA RUN AWAY, I JUST HAD SEX WITH MY BF, then i’ll say, whoah! you die! cos i’m going to spread it cos it’s soooo true cos it came out of your mouth everyday. LOL, no right? so please lah, have some brains, not clever but please, the tofu in ur head is not made for nothing. at least an IQ of 1 la. wanna accuse, come up with reasonable and fair judgment and evidence. you cant call a tortoise slow cos books saw go right? (dumb, *Faints*)
anyway, this is my third match ever played when i’m in secondary school team. thus, you have no chance of saying i dint work for it ok! HAHA. third match. wow, and today wasnt going well too, cos my hand was wobbly and maybe partly i was trying to be a robot so much, my wrist just keep flicking on it’s own. heng coach not there, if not sure kena scold until dog blood over my head(decode that yourself).
haha, and chinese, heh, i wasnt the first in class, i was the few 2nds. haha, ok, paiseh la, i overestimated myself, but i’m sooo not going to pay that 50 cents, it’s so unfair cos i’ve paid almost up to a 1000 bucks since sec one. i seriously should have gone to neighbourhood school instead, help my mom save money you know! it’s so annoying that consent forms keep coming and coming tell you to pay and pay and pay without knowing where the fucking money goes. i mean, at least give us a accounts showing all the things paid, and amount subsidized. hurhur, i’m very stingy with my money ok. money is precious, cos the course i wannna take in university costs 27k each year. zzz, kanasai.
ok, i shall be good and get back to my homework and chengyus. tomorrow got test. but maybe i’m going to pla soccer for a while. havent touched that ball(uhuh, dont think unstraight) for a long time alrd. but heheh. i know a secret that is going to happen tomorrow that you guys dont know (no amount of bribery will make me spill the beans). and somemore, i wanna get myself mentally prepared for that hellish 2 period tomorrow. *faints again*. k, night!
20 hours more to a long awaited rest.
*and then, thedivingprincess disappears…*
heh, i did my chinese speech today, and hurhur, thanks are teacher, say “who wanna give her some opinions friends?” whoah, she really gave my enemies a good laugh. hurhur.. bleh.
haha, she praised me you knoW! it’s my second time being praised for speeches, and it’s always chinese. always kena scolded for english one leh, dno why. i got fat tongue ok! i cant pronounce “d” “t” all these properly lorh, if i have to i must fake out angmoh accent lorh. HAHA… lawls. anyway, i hope i wont be chosen for the speech thingi, one less trouble right? and i’m known for having stage fright ok, i wasnt relaxed when i was saying my speech. my chest was trembling. hurhur.
ahaha, i wanna join campus superstar! HAHA.. i think it will be funny to you all la, but if i make it, you all must gimme $100 man! haha, ok la, maybe just pay 10 bucks for audition fees. heh, jodie will be going too lorh! so even if we malu, i make sure we malu together. HAHA… lol.
today was kindof a happy day, just that, oops! i slept in class again, like zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. and i had one drop of saliva on my foolscape paper! HOW COOL IS THAT! haha.. i i heard eileen drooled on vicki’s textbook b4 lorh. :p so, i’m ok la. BLEH!
haha, why am i acting cute man! haha.. anw, i was thinking what i wanna be when i grow up. most prob is i be a veterinarian/zoologist/studying animal behavior. but if i cant make it then no choice. gonna do business or something else la. but hah, just hope i get this dream done. cos it’s my dream since i was like, 6 or 7? haha.. yupyup.
ok, gonna study bio alrd. 8:47. havent even started the chapter. boohoo.
ok, good luck to sec4s(ONLY) for the remaining tests this week:
-maths(binomial)
- bio ( c7 and c17)
- chinese (no nid study one, except chengyu)
alright, bio peeps! remember to water your plants ok! don let them die. heehee.
haha, the title aint related to this post. so, ha, hurray to randomness!
hais, today’s quite bad i guess? cos there are still people treating me like plague. see me first this is you know? they make the banana shape (with thier body, you’ll have to imagine about this) before stepping thier first time and run to thier clique. hurhur, very funny. i appreciate that. and i thought you were a good soul. hur, i’m really dumb about that. i should have thrown the bucket (ok, it’s a box right? i dno what isit called la) of soil up your ass and make you cry all the way home while the soil gives you abrasion up your ass. hurhurhur..now it’s really funny.
har! making myself clear in the previous post, i really feel much relieved. cos i really dont like people to be part of my life, or be part of theirs. cos. hmm, i lead my own, people lead theirs. to me, a little push is enough to make someone get going, well, at least for me. i don really wan anything except a nudge, unless you wan my foot to meet your nuts. and the most important thing is, i hate people who tell me to change who i am. it’s actually like a thumbprint. it doesnt change, even if there is a cut, the fingerprint will be back. because, we are made like that, so why spent time changing and making myself unhappy right? (yes ma’am!) so, i’m happy now! and so many people could be my witness. i’m happy because i am me, and people still hate me for that. but i’m cool! i dont really care. i really hope this is clear enough for you thus, do not attempt to quote my post, blog about me, or have that feeling of trying to save this friendship, cos it will not work. i will not turn back after a decision, i never do that. so get on with life when it was without me. cos i’m living mine as usual when you’re not in my life then too. to say the truth, i feel more relaxed and carefree and whatever positive adjective you could think of when i decide to end the friendship. if you really want me to be happy, leave me alone.
anw, school was fun today, cos i’m being more talkative, and gettin’ scolded for that. haha, “yeeyin ah! you keep on talking then go home say don understand then never do your homework. you liddat how to listen? this kind of excuse you also can say”. hurhur, of course i can! i’m a genius what! haha, just a lazy one i guess. and btw, i forgottened that bio test is this thursday, so my fellow blogders(coined by http://xiaxue.blogspot.com) end here alrd. be back really soon!!! xDxD
xoxo(wow, i took a long time to realise this means hug kiss hug kiss. but how come people don hug and kiss together one. -.0;)
