My computer got confiscated from me

Haha, yea, i told my mom to keep the stupid laptop from my view.

“EH! Tell you arh! KEEP THE LAPTOP SOMEWHERE IDK! I found it the other time.”

I’m making the effort to stop using it ok! and concentrate better.

But i kept walking around and found my other best friend!

THE TELEVISION!!!

and then i kept disturbing my bro and my dog.

then i almost went to bed.

So i only did a chapter of history in a day.

but that was a good effort i must say!

So i’ll be online lesser.

Hopefully, no more gossips on this blog. (:

TATA

anyway, this is me using the computer cos my dad asked me to checked something.

tsktsk, asking her daughter to sin man.

xD

ciao.

I’m sick.

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I’m scared

I’m scared of negative emotions.

How people think of me.

What people think of me.

What am I to them.

Why am i always gettin’ bullied.

I’m scared of people gettin’ angry. Sad. Neglected.

I’m really scared.

23 June 2008 Monday Greens.

You get so sick of Mondays, it’s no longer blue. It’s turning green.

I’m so amazed that today, I woke up with no complains, ate a proper breakfast and packed my bag rather quickly (ya,then i missed out alot of things). I got into the car, just like any other school day.

I guess when you get older, School holidays don’t mean much anymore. It’s just a self study period ( + loads of extra lessons and hw) i guess? Well. Really, Sec 3s should really start making use of holidays. My seniors have been telling me to study at the start of the year. Being damn good @ procrastinating, i told myself it’s still early 10 months away from o levels.

then, super achievers came at the 6 months left timing. I told myself. Aiya, sure can manage one. he got 13 points by studying hardcore for 5 weeks. Doesn’t matter one la.

Now it’s 4 months left. Tick. Tick. Tick.

Time is running so quickly, but I don’t seem to be taking much effort in running after it.

What I can do now is to do as much as I can, finishing up what I’ve left out, especially the most dreadful, MATHS HOMEWORK.

I find myself doing and doing for a couple of days. And i realised that maths homework is really important! All these years i’ve been just thinking it’s all about understanding. But both is as important if you want to score an A. Understanding, then practice. which in turn brings Greater Understanding in the topic.I’m stubborn. I know (:

4 months left. Let’s just make myself feel better by saying. it’s ok. But it’s time to really catch up now.

79 pages of SS to rush and 2 topics of maths.

Sorry as i take my leave.

I’ve got to go chase time ((:

Only 1 day left till school reopens!

Says the countdown machine. (dammit)

Ok. So we have these homework

1. English Compre
2. Chemistry :
   - Electrolysis (tuition)
   - Carboxylic acid and esters
   - Alcohols
3. Maths
   - Let’s just not talk about it. xD

Woots. I’ve finished mmm, almost 4/5 of it i guess? Haha, it’s an accomplishment ok! I used to leave all till SCHOOL REOPEN to COPY! Haha.

Oh well. It’s now 4 more to o levels. It used to be 6. So let me say.

OH SHIT.

I haven’t started revising, paying attention in class.

But i’m damn lucky to find a tutor at this time and a good one. ~ phew~

Ok. I’m not going to blog anymore. like you know, often.

So byebye! this blog is going to die soon.

Until i decide to blog again. xD byebye!

Mini Guitar Hero Game!

GLM

Bloody excuse.

It’s just plainly running away from reality ain’t it?

pfffff.

Damn this girl.

Let me support China just for once.

Tomorrow.

He’s not the same anymore. I don’t know if it’s a good or bad thing.

But ohwell. I’ll just ask my brother what’s the plan tomorrow.

I really don’t know what to do.

Chieko Inouye

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Ok. I really shouldn’t be wasting my time on these stuffs. -.-”

Build me up, Buttercup

Lol. I love that song. xD

Nonsense post.

:D

B says I should just heck care them.

OHKAY! :D

I got a new tuition teacher!! Hahah.

Joceyln decided to neglect me and throw me to someone else.

Okay! She not so bad. I wanted a tuition teacher that will last me till o levels, so yea, she found me another teacher lorh. HAHA.

Yup, got a feelin’ she’s going to be ALOT stricter than Joce. HAHa, k la. Maybe it’s better. But oh well.

我不管了 !!
:D

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Ya Ya Papaya.

So what if it’s taken down because what’s done is done and it hurts other people?

HELLO!!! Do consider how many years of harm she has done to me. But oh well, friends must help friends to speak up right? And someone like me who doesn’t have any friends can’t do anything. I don’t really blame you if you have to come up with rebuttals.

- Sighs -

3 vs 1. I lose liao lorh.

Fine la, I don’t really care about this liao la.

But through this thing, I’ve really found some nice parts of some people that are actually very nice.

I have to say I’ve been wrong about them for at least a year for some.

I really appreciate those who have said some, even if it’s just a sentence of encouraging words.

I should really spend more time appreciating that critisizing or plain complaining about small trivial matters that probably won’t stick to me for the rest of my life unless i choose to continue thinking about it.

It was never about remembering, but rather cherishing the good ones, and letting go of the others.

Blessing in disguise, I have to say.

Even the stock markets falls and rises again. And without those falls/rises, it wouldn’t be fun as there won’t be any anticipation on what’s going to happen next. You have to sell those that are lousy, and keep those that are promising although the price is rather low. Takes much $$ to master, and lots of patience.

I’m happy (:

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Do you realize.

1. I’ve already taken down all recent posts about her because yes, I’m nice, and I know my own mistakes (it doesn’t mean she’s right) and I do not want to continue doing something that does not do me or anyone good.
2. The accusation is not made only by me but by several people (:
3. I don’t really care if you do not wish to be neutral about this situation when it does not concern much of you.
4. I don’t care if you’re going to give me that pissed off attitude forever or what.

I’m don’t hate people. I just detest people, and I won’t give you the reason here in public. I’m going to be that particular person who blogs in private too. Hurray :D

- All hail to private blogging!! -

Anyway (woots, my favourite word), I’ve been talking about this thing for quite a while. What’s the point of saying sorry when you’ve just bashed the person up like, 15 seconds before?

Hmm.

It’s like.

Me: You’re such a bloody fucker! (Insert bimbo tone) Omg ~ (End of bimbo tone) I can’t believe you’re a fucking whore!! Oh! what’s that hanging off your mini shorts! *Gasps* It’s a condom!! Eww, what’s that white stuff inside? ZOMG it’s a used one!!! (shouts) HEY EVERYONE! SHE FUCKED A GUY! -Girl cries- (Sarcastic tone) Oh gosh, are you hurt? I’m so sorry, i shouldn’t have done that!! Poor little thing!!~

*I’m not targeting anyone in this little thingi. Serious, I’m not targeting anyone. Do not make any assumptions, BECAUSE I REALLY DINT TALK ABOUT ANYONE!!! OMG!!! serious ok!*

It’s weird seriously. How easy the word “sorry” comes out of people’s mouth these days.

I think it’s like, cheaper than a bun.

-Ohkay, it’s a very no link comparison-

Anyway (fav word!!!), Private blogging. so,

Ciao :D

When.

Stop dreaming.

Start turning dreams into reality.

And I mean. NOW.

Sometimes, it’s just too painful to hear.

Hmm, I tell myself all the time that it’s just best to ignore what’s happening. However, I go back on my words all the time.

I’ve read someone’s post. Well, we used to at least, talk. But then, i realized this sudden change in her attitude. And my suspicion wasn’t wrong. I’ve lost another person that I could hang out with in school.

Why am I called, “a bitch”. It seriously hurts me alot, although I seem not to care. They’ve achieved their goal, if it was to make me unhappy.

No, yy is very obvious. I’m not talking about anyone else. I’m sure you were talking about me, on your 3rd june 08 post.

It feels as if that everything I have is turning into sand. It flows through my hand even though I tried to cup it.

Maybe it’s just my inability to let friendships feel safe in my hands.

I really want to know how to fully let go of things. Believe that what is gone, is gone for good.

I will learn my friends.

I will promise, at least to myself. I will now be like in the past, sinking into a corner while these shadows crowd around me.

Let me think, I am real.

Let words be reminders, and not punishment, guilt, and sadness.

I just want to be neutral. That’s all. Is that too much to ask for, yeeyin?

It’s time to go, yeeyin, it’s time to go.

I hit the delete button. I”m so proud of myself (:

I’ve been through the past. But now, I will choose not to dwell on it.

As you all have realised, I’ve deleted all the posts that seemed to mean, senseless and immature… I don’t know what has got into me lately.

I cannot say that i will forget it completely, but let time heal all wounds.

Now I choose to forgive, and to forget. And also to not look back on my past and sulk, whine and make noises. I’ll learn from it.

I’ve been given the chance to learn the hard way, and these lessons are carved inside me, every single part of me.

Now it’s not the time to hate, but the time to forgive and let go.

Although it doesn’t really make the whole problem go away, at least it won’t get worse.

这不是逃避现实，而是让自己有一个重生的机会。原谅别人，就有如原谅自己。心里
的一个结打开了，心胸也自然宽阔了起来。

I’m proud of myself. (:

No more posts on anyone. Just on things and situations. Less gossips, less people gettin’ hurt (and i won’t get hurt much either).

I’ve wasted alot of time on all these crap. It’s time to let go and be myself.

Remind myself that there are people out there who loves me. Even if the whole school decides to hate me, my big sisters are always there (: [i seriously love them!]

I won’t harp on the past, but will just move forward as it is.

Focus is the main thing this year. Focus on the wrong thing and there goes my cert.

I’m going to be myself. The real self.