真夏的櫻花 – 張善為
曲︰森山直太朗
詞︰劉虞瑞
笑一個吧 親愛的朋友啊
把悲傷留在昨天 鎖上
還記的那些 我們說過的夢想
你的笑臉 燦爛如花
＊總有一天你我會再見面啊
雖然要像這櫻花各奔天涯
歲月或許會 改變你我的模樣
我的思念 永不放假
＃明天的世界 等待我們擁抱它
在我心中 裝著你祝福的話
＋SAKURA SAKURA 灑滿青春的魔法
擦乾眼淚說聲再會 都是成長的代價
SAKURA SAKURA 昂首風雨中
有愛我最大 期待他日花開的季節裡
〔回家〕
重唱 ＊,＃,＋,＋,＋
I went to training in my sports shoe instead of slippers, hoping to cover up my left toe which is covered with 2 pieces of cotton wool and bandaged. I told myself to give myself another shot, thinking that having a small injury at the toe is part and parcel of picking up a new sport.
Wore the shoe that caused me trouble because I always have trouble finding the right size. It all looks the same.
Now, my left second toe looks exactly like a matchstick and alittle bruising at the tip, my right second toe has a ‘mole’ under the nail. So here I am, trying to hobble around the house on the balls of my feet. Not a very fun thing to do.
Ice didn’t work, massaging made it worst.
Worst case scenario, to the doc’s tmr.
Worst worst scenario. I might give up soccer for a while.
Phobia.
Puking and bruised toes don’t go well with soccer.
Even if I can face this mentally, I can’t fit into the physical aspect of the sport. Maybe I can’t even face it mentally. Played a while of match. I couldn’t keep up. I was confused of what I was supposed to do. I shall live in self denial and say it’s not my fault because I’m a complete noob with a ball bigger than a table tennis ball.
Lawls.
Foot pain.
Bye.
D:
T.T
*whines*
Rating I would give myself: 5/10
I don’t even know whether I completed 4km. I kindof lost count in the middle, like on the 5th or 6th round. The person in front of me didn’t overtake me, but she ended first, then I was like ey, she got overtake me meh? But I continued running anyway. after running 200m of the last lap, guess what?? I puked. Sour. Didn’t eat enough breakfast I think. And the half cup of milo was partying like mad in my stomach. Plus the backache I had since the 3rd round, this is a bad experience for my first 4km. Never tried anything like this before. I ran 2.4km, because I had to. I ran 4km, because I didn’t want to sound whiny. Great. Hurhur. Act clever lurh.
Then we had basics. Did that during the DSA trails. Doing it (not bad) didn’t get me in. But heck, just learn again. It doesn’t hurt to do something again and again doesn’t it? It’s just part of every sports. If you skip the basics, you will not do well. Don’t trust anyone when they say they skipped those and then became National players.
Hmm, I think those simple drills were ok. Quite fun actually. It’s a very great satisfaction when I got it right.
Then the older ones played a AVD (aka attack vs defence). A few of the Sec4s got to play. I didn’t. Poof. Kinda sad because I had to sit there. Being rather hyper active at times, I don’t like having to sit my butt onto something for a long time. But look on e bright side. Learnt a couple of things today, like soccer ain’t all about kicking the ball. Got to rest my legs also. Blisters were almost forming, and my second toe and big toe, due to ingrown nails, were a little bit sore.
Got a little bit phobia of running long d now. But I don’t think I’m going to stop here.
Next time I run, I’ll make sure I can complete 4km with ease and speed.
That will be a personal challenge for me in the new year.
4km in half and hour.
Nothing is impossible. Impossible is nothing.
But I still support Nike d: Just do it.
P/s: I hate the new wordpress.
Fuck.
HAHA. I can’t go out until my room lookc presentable enough. Means no trying to use the papers around as my carpet, no rat shit (that’s the bad thing about living in a landed in Geylang), no pieces of dog fur/cat fur/dust, and no clutter tabletop/dressing table/cupboard and no clothes lying around anywhere.
Damn man.
Anyway, I’m giving out (yes, I’m trying to “plant good Kharma seeds” so I can become a human in my next life cursing people) these textbooks. MSN me if you want them:
- Biology textbook
- SS S3 textbook (I have 3 of them)
- SS S3 and S4 workbook
-History textbook
-EMaths textbook(S3 and S4)
-EMaths TYS
And so. I went for NRA’s Production – DANZATION 08!
It wasn’t as nice as 2006’s. Didn’t like the collaboration part with some schs. Not very dope. But heng, the 2nd half of the show was FUCKING GREAT. Of course, it was because my cousin’s dancing inside la!! HAHAH!!! Ey, don’t play play ok, he got the Best Dancer award before ok!! HAHA ok, because the last few parts were by NRA’s people and alumni. So it’s whoah lorh!!
Lebbu was also dancing! But can’t find her, cos I was sitting like, in the middle row. D: Can’t see those faces of the dancers. I don’t really like NRA’s freshies leh, like some of them. Cos when they dance they don’t really have the groove, and abit poserish(maybe that’s cos I saw my school’s ex-students inside). Aiya, see the next production then say. Maybe they’ll improve.. idk.
Anyway, I got to see my godsis!! :D Din’t see her for quite a while, cos she’s juggling 2 jobs and a bf. HAHA. Hmm. It’s quite a good feeling to know that we’re still very very very good friends! Because most of the time, I feel very awkward even though i saw you’re my good friend. But I feel really like her meimei when I’m with her. Wahahaha!~
Ok. Shall go back to the war zone.
*sian ji buah*
I’m so addicted to big band jazz recently after watching Swing Girls!
It’s about a group of girls having maths remedial class trying to form a JAZZ band in order to escape the class. Then, yeah, it’s a Japanese film, so you’ll surely be laughing like mad. You’ll be awed by how well they play too, because unlike the other musical shows, it’s not lip sync-ed and the actors really know how to play the instruments.
Very nice!! Go watch it!
That fucking download can be PAUSED dammit. What a nice way to fucking hog onto that only vodafone we have. And in the first place, it wasn’t even meant to be used by YOU.
So what if I can’t live with the internet for a day? It’s not that I lie to go out everyday like you do! I don’t get so rebellious and fucking get a mate this early in life like you did and squandering $2000+++ on a woman you don’t even know whether you’re marry.
Excuses. Selfish just like someone. Hogging everything just for yourself when other people needs to use it.
Idiot.
You call yourself 20 going 21.
More like 20months going 21.
Grow up. Like how you claim you are.
I shouldn’t have spent so much time on something that wasn’t even approved.
So much effort.
Forget it. I’m just born to be a failure.
Period.
When I dream of a white christmas, I imagine Santa Mas Selamat dropping a nuclear bomb and killing all of us.
“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude.It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”
You cut yourself, cry for nothing, blog about things that are obviously serving the purpose of self denial. You say you’re depressed and complain how life has been unfair for you. You wish for angels to come and help you through the so called “darkest period of your life”.
I don’t care how the fuck you’re going to die. The sickening thing is, everything you hope for, comes true.
You get supportive friends, some star who dropped a message to show her care and concern, show how glad you were when people came to help.
And then I’ll be standing there saying,
“Ey, wah lau. I want to cut myself too.”
Shit. Doesn’t that make me sound AA or what.
Pfft.
So damn irritated.
When I see this picture, nothing else really matters.
I just want to hurry up and earn $$ ( through a way that only Delaney and I know and I will blog about it soon. Those who also know it are to shutup.), then get back to Chiangrai and reunite with my second family.
I miss Tassawan, Supaporn, Duangjit, Yuphin, Yupha, Muei.
I really miss you guys.
And I promised that I’ll return.
I swear I will.
Nothing lasts forever. And the first thing that will be gone, will always be friendship.
I have to really admit that, my best friend (or just self-proclaimed) and I, have drifted so far, it’s beyond hope that we’ll be what we used to be like in the past.
I’m gettin’ kindof afraid to hold on to what I have now. At least when it’s gone, I won’t have to struggle as hard, trying to snatch it back. It’s going to go anyway.
Perhaps I should just remain in my own dreamland, living in self-denial. That she (another she) thinks I’m still her friend. I don’t know.
I just know i don’t enjoy things being taken away from me. Especially friends I thought will always remain by my side.
If I were to tell myself they have their own lives, then why don’t I have my own life with my own friends and people who want to befriend me will be saying “she has her own life too”?
Maybe I was just late.
I don’t know. I always don’t.
I still have a couple of notes around the house. So I’m going to post what I have here:
(a) E.Hist papers from different schools. Includes SBQ and SEQ questions + answers .
(b) English Letter writing notes (includes sentences you can use during complains, and also letter to editor notes, and lots more) + narrative/descriptive writing notes + TKSS and TKGS prelim paper 1 + one speech written by me, can be used to double check things to do and things not to do + whole list of personal recount questions (TYS on a piece of paper).
If you guys want to choup any of these notes, please msn me or write a comment in my wordpress. The person who got it will be announced in the next part of “Up for grabs” and I will pass to you really soon.
To be continued.
