Phillip Chbeeb and Robert Muraine.

I want to be like them too ):

Dance, not so easy afterall.

Ok tell you something really stupid that happened today. They asked for YEAR 2 to show their choreo, but I, from GROUP 2, went up without knowing. HAHAHA. No wonder I felt weird being there. those J2s know their moves. I don’t. Hurhur.

Did 7 rounds today, wasn’t the last to finish, but still, it’s fucking slow lurh. I don’t know why I can’t just run till I’m really really really exhausted. Yes, I was breathless, but not feeling the burning pain when I know I will feel when I’m pushing myself to the max. That’s why I always feel so bad during runs. I never seem to push myself to the limit.

And once again, my knees are almost near getting busted. My ankle is also starting to give way, maybe because I ran 6 rounds yestesday and 7 rounds today. Never exercise since the holidays man. Phew, exercising is tough work.

I hope I will be disciplined enough to build up my fitness. Discipline enough to train my muscles and dance. If people put in effort, I will put in twice the effort. I can and will do it.

*crosses fingers*

Stop wasting time yeeyin!

I should stop wasting my spare time on the internet when I can use it to revise bio and chemistry.

Now I have no excuse to say I can’t catch up in class. Shit.

People. Bug me to study!

I miss Claudia sitting beside me asking me to study and do homework and not sleep in class ):

She’s such a good table mate man.

Mathematics.

When this word comes out, what do you think of?

Probably trigonometry, geometry, bearings and all the other topics that you hate so much. You find maths a hassle. What’s the point of doing so much maths when we’re not going to really use it anyway? We’re just going to use + – x and / right? So oh well, it seemed so senseless to be studying all those shitty things like differentiation and integration.

But, when this comes pops out in my mind, I think of all my maths teachers I had since young.

Their patience and understanding is so much higher than any other teacher. They don’t flare up at you when you can’t solve a question, but stay back to give you extra remedial. They don’t flare up at you when you don’t do your work, but they feel disappointed. They have high hopes on us. But unlike the other teachers, they make us reach our goal stpe by step.

Mathematics teachers are super understanding creatures. Solving maths problems like it’s nothing and explaining the reasons behind it. But when I speak of understanding, it’s not just a literal description. They understand you in and out. They understand your goals, your passion, your troubles. To them, we are just like a complex sum of numbers. But they are willing to take their time and patiently unfold you, finding out what makes you.

I miss my secondary school maths teacher. I feel so damn bloody bad to get A2 for both my maths. I let her down. I made her give up on me. She spent so much time to make me buck up, yet I disappoint her all the time.

So now, I’m making a point to do my maths homework. And my current teacher is really nice too. Reasonable, clear, fun. I’m so looking forward to maths TUTORIALS ( not lectures, mind you ). I can’t wait.

Mathematics, for some reason I can’t understand, allows me to clam down when I do it, and a great sense of satisfaction when I understand and solve it.

Yes I’m weird. Hope this weird relationship I have with mathematics will continue. :D

I can do this man. Get an A for maths. For me, and all my maths teachers.

It’s just so different.

Second week of school just ended.

It’s been a crazy time with a crazy bunch of people in 1T28. So much have happened. Got into dance, did homework and handed them up ( yes, I did my mathematics ), skipped PTM. There’s nothing I should be unhappy about. I means, ok fine, I was pissed off with a particular someone today, but I think it’s just normal. I mean, what’s a relationship without having some disputes to let us grow stronger friendships?

You see. I’ve been crazy all about, making people laugh, doing cool and sick stuffs to annoy/impress people.

I fit in to them. But I don’t find it fitting myself.

I’ve never been so active and hyper in my life in stnicholas. It’s usually the type where I try to be as low profile as possible because I can’t risk having to incur the wrath of any bimbos.

I had mean rumours about me going round and round for 3-4 years, people shunning me like crazy. There’s just a stigma that “yeeyin’s weird and annoying you shouldn’t get near to her at all”.

And also, those who saw my photo, yes. I’m labelled as a lesbian because I had short hair, then spiked hair in sec 2.

Then, I became a loner. No, it’s not because I’m anti social.

Quote Jodi Picoult from My Sister’s Keeper:

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude.It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”

Unlike what the personality test said, I’m seriously an introvert + abit extrovert. An introvert doesn’t usually mean that, they are shy or anything. They do enjoy the company of people, just that after a while, they need to quieten down and recharge their energy. I think a few of the fire people are like that. So yeah.

That’s why I don’t know if I’m actually doing the right thing by being so bubbly and also having a small little clique (sorry guys, now you know why sometimes I disappear).

I’m also just scared that I’ll be too close to anyone, because I’ll start picking out all your bad habits and I won’t be very nice when I do that. 80% of the time I’ll fall out with you.

So pardon me classmates ( I don’t use friends guys. Buddies preferred. Because the word friend holds a very special meaning to me ), if I were to turn lonerish for a while. I need to think and reflect the things I do often to make sure that it’s me doing the right thing, doing what I enjoy.

Dont’ be mistaken. There’s nothing wrong with you or me. I’m just recharding my batteries. (:

Week 2 [ Or Term 1 Week 7 for J2s ]

Damn. We’re just going to end at around 4-5 pm everyday, 6pm if there’s cca.

The only thing i’m looking forward to is maths and PE and dance and break.

Yeah I know there’s somthing wrong with the grammer, but who cares?

School’s been great otherwise. Great friends, great classmates. Social life’s still find at the moment.

We’ll just have to wait and see if things are going to stay this great, or there’s going to be a downturn in life like when I was still in St. Nicks.

It all ends up with me. How I present myself and also how nice I can be to others. According to my testimonial, I’m supposed to be kind and helpful who goes around helping people, wanting nothing in return.

I hope I will remain like that. Being bubbly and loud, but still have this softer side of me who will be going around, offering help to those who need them.

Compassion and humility shall be the greatest virtures, along with great determination and pride in all that I do.

With these kept in my mind all day long, I’m sure I will succeed. Both academically and socially.

And also, to finish my homework punctually and do frequent readings for all subjects. Score As and then get a H3.

When Bob the builder says “Yes we can!”, I can.

For this birthday, I want…

1. Nikon D60

2. A microphone to train bboxing

3. Lots of presents and birthday wishes

4. Soft toys, preferably Stitch or scrump!

5. A CAKE

6. Graphic calculator

7. Great brain memory for CA

That’s all.

If you guys don’t know,

My birthday is on 12 March 1:40PM sharp :D

First day of school!

I ALMOST dozed off during chemistry. Don’t get me wrong. Chemistry is fun, just that I have this bad affinity with chemistry teachers. I hate all my chemistry teachers. W00t.

Then we had biology. The syllabus looks really fun, and so do the teachers. No more molly in bio, it’s all men this time. SO yeah. Hope I’ll do well.

Took photos today to make class photo list. HAHA. Ok, not much about that.

Made a class flag, looked kinda awesome. We had this girls are better than guys art things because part of it was almost screwed up by Joel! HAHA! But it doesn’t matter la.

[ I hate that TIME MAGAZINE guy would stop calling me. Super irritating.]

I had a freakin’ disaster with the tie today. Either too long or too short or it turned square again. So Shirly and Valerie helped me with it. HAHA. Super scary, because it was already 7:32 and I still can’t get my tie done. Lawls.

Super tired. Bye.

HAHA!